...because that was how I was comfortable dressing. I didn't dare to wear leggings, because I thought my legs looked weird. I didn't dare to wear anything that showed my arms; if I had to wear a t-shirt, I'd wear a longer sleeved one underneath it. I have what I assume is a kind of eczema, where my skin - but particularly my upper arms - bubbles up in little red marks, especially when I'm too hot or sweating, or itches to the point where I have to scratch and it scars. And I'd become convinced that every time anybody looked at me, they would notice it and go 'ewww'. So I kept it covered up as best I could, even if it meant boiling during summer.
Going to roller derby for the first time was massively daunting, and not just because I'd never been on skates before! I'd followed advice and worn what I thought was tight clothing, but which probably wasn't by anybody else's standards, and I felt like I was going to walk in and all these athletic looking women were going to take one look at me and laugh behind their hands. Yes, yes, I know. It was a stupid thing to think, but at the time I'd convinced myself that it was entirely realistic.
I don't think I've ever been so wrong in my life.
And the more I noticed that NOBODY ELSE CARED EITHER.
This next picture is me after one year of roller derby.
So if you're out there wondering if you should take up roller derby, and thinking that maybe you're not strong enough, or not confident enough, or not aggressive enough, tell that part of you to shut up and just do it. It's not necessarily easy. But it is worth it. You'll thank yourself every time you look in a mirror.
Looking forward to all the years to come :)
~ Wickhit xD