Today’s blog post is brought to you by frustration. Let’s discuss just how it feels to have to take a break from roller derby, whether it be due to injury, home stuff, work, whatever, either way, it ALWAYS SUCKS!!!
I can’t speak for everyone else here, but these past weeks I’m not even sure what I’ve been doing with my life. It made me realise how important roller derby and skating really is to me, I’ve felt completely lost! What counts as a hobby? What do I do with my spare hours after work? What is a lazy Sunday morning? I just don’t know what to believe anymore, WHO EVEN AM I??
Okay, maybe I’m exaggerating a little, and I know it’s only 3 weeks and people are out for far longer, but really the withdrawal I’m feeling is pretty intense. So what exactly have I done these past few weeks when I haven’t been derbying and what have I learned?
Also, I have completely discovered that without roller derby training my exercise regime, is not an exercise regime. I’m really starting to feel guilty about eating a third cupcake, and let’s not even mention the consumption of chocolate and crisps that gets consumed when you’re watching your 8th episode of Pokemon on an early Sunday afternoon. Help.
No seriously, help.
I HAVE NO CLOTHES THAT ARE NOT ROLLER DERBY CLOTHES. I’ve spent the entire time I’ve not been training, wearing, well the exact same thing I would wear if I was training. My wardrobe seems to have grown massively since I joined Sheffield Steel Rollergirls, but it also now only consist of leggings and vest tops…. Oh so many many leggings.
Did you think that all this time just sitting around would inspire me to wash my pads? When I first heard I’d need almost a month off I thought, hey! That gives me time to get all my smelly, gross pads cleaned to the point where they smell of unicorn poop and rainbows instead of well, derby (if you play, you know, if you don’t, you do not want to know.) Turns out, nope, my level of laziness with my pads remains exactly the same even when I have plenty of time to do it, they have stayed in my skate bag, in the corner, probably collecting more smell with only 6 days until I return. Maybe I’ll give them a quick spray before I return to calm the stench down. But probably not. In fact, I won’t, I know it. Sorry team.
I have however cleaned my skates to perfection, I’ve spent far too many hours longingly holding my skates, cleaning the wheels, making them shiny, re-lacing them, cleaning the inside everywhere, when I get back, I’m gonna have the shiniest skates in that joint. Until all the scuffs return and my wheels collect so much grime I start practically ice skating around track. But hey, it’s a start.
This one’s a little sad but I’ve also discovered that my entire social life is roller derby, I’m not sure when it happened, but at some point it did. Maybe it’s because I began dedicating all my free time to derby but at some point, everyone else I know has just melted away. Needless to say I’m extremely ready for some sweaty pack hugs again.
One great thing has come from this whole experience however. Not being able to play really has brought it home just how important roller derby is to me. It’s all I’ve thought about for weeks, I’ve been counting down the days until I can go back from the moment I was rendered off skates. I find myself panicking I won’t be able to do some of my skills as well as I could, or I’ll get on my skates and not be able to stay on my feet (please God no.) Roller Derby really has become my passion and my training sessions with my team member my second home. And believe me I am more than ready to come home.
I can’t wait to get in a friendly pack with my teamies, skate fast, hit harder and laugh until I cry again. The next time you all hear from me, it will be after my first session back, so expect to hear all about it!
See you in 6 days SSRG! Love you all!
Keep on rolling and being excellent to each other.